Bunkin

Lo, children are an heritage of the Lord and the fruit of the womb is his reward.

As arrows are in the hands of a mighty man; so are children of the youth.

Happy is the man that hath his quiver full of them:they shall not be ashamed, but they shall speak with the enemies in the gate.

Select verses from Psalm 127, our wedding psalm

In my human-ness, I often find it frustrating when I don't know what the future will hold and never more so than when I hope, long for, and wonder if more children will be given to us to love. It is difficult to find a balance in joy and hope, contentment and longing, satisfaction and desire and this has been the quiet struggle that has occupied my thoughts for many months. Yet, it seems, while my fervent prayers for new life seemed to be unanswered, in the quiet and darkness of my body the Lord was knitting together a new life, even as I spoke to him my petitions. He was quietly granting me my most heartfelt longing, even while the words poured from my heart.

A tiny child, a predestined soul, a beating heart, perfectly formed toes the size of a pinhead, joy in a tangible form, a promise of the future-all wrapped up in the tiny being tucked snugly in my womb.

Though my belly shows no signs of a babe within, though my pregnancies never really have symptoms, and life goes on as usual on the outside: I wake up each morning with my hand having rested subconsciously on my belly, covering Bunkin with what bit of love I can share. I find myself singing and humming more so now than ever before, knowing that each utterance in word and in song is serenading my Bunkin, even when no one else can hear.

It is an indescribable joy, made even more so upon the heels of doubt and insecurities of whether or not the Lord would give us more children. It is much sweeter and more obviously His plan, to have been given the time of waiting. I might not have said that several weeks ago, before I knew, but most assuredly I can attest to it now.

We are elated to know, and share, the news with all those who will share in our joy.

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When I found out, I went straight to the store and bought an arrow and presented it to Matt, saying "I got you a present. Another arrow for your quiver." It was a surprising and joy-filled look he returned to me, maybe with a hint of disbelief added too! :-)

Matt told Corynn that God had answered our prayers and we were going to have another baby. At that, Corynn's face brightened as she gasped, then said, "When? Tomorrow morning?!?"

When Panda was told: He stared blankly with drool running down his chin. Typical man. ;-)

I told the GRANDPARENTS by making puzzlecards and mailing them. They had to put them together in order to figure out the 'clue'. Some were more obvious than others! hehe



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I don't usually go to the doctor's right away, so I am uncertain of a due date. In fact, the false positive that I wrote about awhile back-I think was actually a false NEGATIVE. Depending upon that, our Bunkin will arrive either in November or December. Whatever the month, whatever the gender, we already have names picked out. We just need to wait patiently until the time when Bunkin is to arrive.

And now you know!