What you do in your house is worth as much as if you did it up in heaven for our Lord God. We should accustom ourselves to think of our position and work as sacred and well-pleasing to God, not on account of the position and work, but on account of the word and faith from which the obedience and the work flow. ~ Martin Luther

Monday, May 16, 2011

*Muah*


It was my birthday yesterday.

My last year in my twenties and all of a sudden I am feeling not quite ready to get old. I still feel like I ought to be 22.


Matt made it lovely for me~ not with big gifts but with little moments. Like making me breakfast in bed and calling me lovely (!!) in front of the entire church congregation. And for pulled pork at dinnertime that *I* didn't have to make.


And a friend from church made me a surprise cheesecake! (oh my, do I love me some cheesecake!) What a wonderful, thoughtful thing to do, no?


And it was.... sublime.


Saw this floating around and thought how perfectly fitting for my birthday. I thought it would be pretty quick to answer, but it was surprisingly difficult to answer at times.
Wonder if/how my answers will have changed by next year?


At 29 years old:

i am:
living my dream


i know: that no matter how hard I try or how badly I want it, I will never do everything right or know everything there is to know. And that it is okay.

i want: words of wisdom to rush forth from my lips at the exact moment they are needed. But they never do.

i have: way too many craft supplies.

i miss: love letters, singing around my Mom's piano and fitting into my wedding dress.

i fear: big huge bridges, heights, and walking on grates in the sidewalk. Not petrified, just...nervous. OKay. MAYBE petrified when it comes to bridges.

i feel: like I am not ready to be old yet, but I am getting there anyway.

i hear: songs in the breeze, laughter in the brooks and God in thunder

i crave: acceptance and love.
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i search: for unnoticed treasures, beauty, moments and memories when I pick up the camera. And with each "click", I NOTICE. This is why I love taking photographs. And that is why I can't stop.

i regret: something new every day.

i love: seeing old people holding hands. Seeing large families with lots of well-behaved children. The sound of uncontrollable laughter. Laugh wrinkles. Matts voice.

i care: too much about what other people think of me.

i always: wear toenail polish. I feel naked without it. And when I wear RED, I feel just a little bit risque. ;-)

i believe: that there is something beautiful about every single person on earth and that is what we need to be looking for.

i dance: even when I don't have a dancing partner (which is always since Matt only dances with me in the kitchen and never in public.) *sniff*

i sing: really loudly and in all circumstances

i don’t always: say yes to my children when I should. Say no to my children when they shouldn't. Use my time wisely.

i truly desire: land of our own where I can plant orchards and vineyards, rhubarb and asparagus and live there long enough to harvest them. I want to grow children in a place where they can dig dirty toes in dirt and make strong roots. To have a home that great-great grandchildren can still visit long after we are gone and say "That was great great Grandpapa and Grandmama's house. Papa played on that tree when he was boy."

i like: playing cards at my in-laws. Sitting around a bonfire. Anything sparkly. Yard-saling. Playing kick the can on a Sunday afternoon. My dad's gray hair. Reading in the grass. Throwing parties. Decorating. Working in my craft room. Wearing flowers in my hair. Giving Handmade. Finding a letter in my mailbox.

i write: every.single.day

i lose: almost always at chess, almost never at Blink.

i win: in all circumstances.(James 1:2-12)

i try: not to interrupt when friends are talking but sometimes I am so excited to talk to them I forget.

i never: eat fish, drink coffee or drive by myself to a place I have never been without VERY PRECISE DIRECTIONS.

i am grateful: for men who open doors for women, people who encourage and compliment at the grocery store even when they don't have to. For children who stand up to offer you a chair when there are no more available. For courtesies that were once commonplace that no longer are and feeling happy to witness them when they do happen.

i listen: to a wide range of music, from Psalms to Frank Sinatra to Johnny Cash. And I sing to all of them.

i am scared: Of living without my husband. Burying my children. Cancer.

i need: sugar

i am happy about: the very pivotal, very exciting, very challenging, very faith-building, very life-changing, very prayerfully-dependent thing that is happening this very week.

(and now you see my one freakish eyebrow that stands in salute. My gift to you.)

19 comments:

Miranda said...

You are so very lovely, Rebecca!

Happy Birthday. Im glad it was a special day!

Caroline said...

Happy Birthday Rebecca! You truly are and inspiration to me :)

Full of Grace said...

What beautiful photos of you Rebecca..These should do wonders for your self-esteem, because you are so pretty in them :) Happy Belated Birthday- May God bless you this year and many future years to come!!! Oh, and btw, your eyes are so pretty :)

Jinger said...

Happy Birthday to you!

And your words of wisdom do reach others in just the right moments here in blogdom... just so you know.

Wishihng you a happiest 29th,

Jinger

Paula said...

Wishing you a very happy birthday. May God grant you many, many more.

Best wishes,
Paula

Bonnie said...

Love the pictures! Fun to read your list, and oh my word that cheese cake. Trying not to drool on my keyboard.
Happy Birthday again!

Bonnie said...

P.S. I also love your shirt and necklace, modern victorian!

Terri said...

Happy Birthday, Rebecca! It sounds like you had a splendid day.

Pam... said...

Lovely Rebecca.

Vanessa said...

Happy Birthday :)

As I think of it I will lift this very important week up to our Father, on your behalf!

Mommy said...

Happy Birthday:)

Tracy said...

Dearest Rebecca,

Happy, Happy Birthday to you. I can't tell you how often I think of you during the days, seeing something that I know you would like, or thinking about something I wish we could discuss in person. I visit you every time you post, though I often leave without a comment. Why, just this morning I stumbled across this:

http://www.ikatbag.com/2011/05/catch-me-and-my-crazy-morphing.html

and thought, 'I bet Rebecca would like to use those as gifts this Christmas!'

You're a beauty, inside and OUT! Again, Happy Birthday. May the Lord bless you this year.

Oh! You've piqued my interest. Will we find out about this soon? :

"i am happy about: the very pivotal, very exciting, very challenging, very faith-building, very life-changing, very prayerfully-dependent thing that is happening this very week."

...they call me mommy... said...

Happiest Birthday! :)

Your thoughts were SO neat to read! I love how you thought deeply about them...I loved getting a peek into your brain and heart! ;) :)

Anonymous said...

your a treasure! Blessings to you for another wonderful year!
-Bobbi : )

oh and i agree, love the outfit and you DO look beautiful!

Leah said...

That's all why I love your blog.

ulli said...

Happy belated birthday, Rebecca! You are beautiful inside and out. What a lovely, honest post. May you have a wonderful year, and many many more!!

celina from canada said...

Bonne Fete from Canada...

Celina

jaya pratheesh said...

wow girl, you are absolutely gorgeous when you have that twinkle in your eyes!( doesnt hurt that you've gone and pulled a kate middleton)(means, a normally pretty girl, and look at her wedding.. dreamy...) so are you in these pics.

lovely post. as you said, very difficult to answer some of those questions. but you came through beautifully.

have a wonderful year, and many more!

abigail said...

Happy birthday!

You are beautiful, and this is such a wonderful post. May this last year of your twenties round out the decade with beauty and peace, and some dashes of excitement to liven the days. (Not too much, though, especially in the area of That Thing.)