What you do in your house is worth as much as if you did it up in heaven for our Lord God. We should accustom ourselves to think of our position and work as sacred and well-pleasing to God, not on account of the position and work, but on account of the word and faith from which the obedience and the work flow. ~ Martin Luther

Saturday, January 04, 2025

Thanksgiving

 


Thanksgiving was nearly PERFECT this year.   But it wasn't without its' stresses beforehand.

When the power was finally restored the previous week, we discovered quickly that the oven no longer worked.  Matt, because he is a brilliant and handy man, diagnosed the problem and ordered the part- but it took a while to get to us.  So I was without an oven for two weeks and HOSTING Thanksgiving!

I worked out a game plan: turkey in the roaster oven. (I made one a few days prior too, just to be warmed up.)  Pies baked at neighbors.  No rolls, after all.

The part came the night before and Matt installed it on Thanksgiving morning and I quickly mixed up the dough and got some rolls baking.  WE HAD ROLLS!  

Oh my, was I grateful for a working oven that day.


Speaking of rolls...

this year with the invites, I passed out rolls of paper instructing people to fill them out with things they were grateful for.  Our family is a mixed political bag and with the election so close, I wanted to be sure Thanksgiving had the proper focus.  God. Gratitude.  Gifts.

(It worked like a charm.  It happened to be my favorite part of the day.)



If you believed these nearly identical turkeys belonged to the same maker, you'd be wrong.  The blue eyed turkey belongs to Moses and its' friend belongs to Ineke.


I made those little mushrooms from dried clementine halves and cinnamon sticks.  They were the cutest little ornaments, ifidosaysomyself.  And made such a cute little garland until I could give them out as Christmas gifts.

The waiting and watching is the hardest part...






Those little 'crackers' each held a chocolate truffle and a DAD JOKE to be read aloud, along with funny little punny pins I picked out for each person.  


John, Holly, David, CC provided some entertainment by reciting Psalm 100 which then inspired us all to SING it.




Here are the "Thanksgiving Rolls" all hung.  

Originally, the plan was for everyone to read through the lists and guess which list belonged to whom.  But it actually was not hard to determine the author so there was no real winner.

But it was so, so wonderful hearing from each person what things they were thankful for.  It helps you to get to know one another more deeply.  And it was often hilarious too.  

Corynn and Kemuel read the lists aloud so no one could cheat by recognizing handwriting.





And of course... we sang Happy Birthday to our sweet Thanksgiving baby... Adele' is a gift that was written on my list that day and on my heart always.  






The snow was falling, it was beautiful outside.  The weather was cool enough to be refreshing but not freezing cold. Snowball fights ensued after dinner.  And everyone gave me five minutes to get a Christmas card photo snapped.  (Pardon the muckboots.)




Corynn and Kemuel were able to spend part of the day with us, which was a real blessing.  I remember those early marriage days when you don't want to disappoint anyone and EVERYONE wants you!  It is hard to stretch yourself to please everyone... so I tried not to put any pressure on them at all to come.  But not only did they come for dinner, but they returned that evening for cold leftovers and a movie snuggle.



Truly, the best Thanksgiving ever.

Friday, January 03, 2025

A Narnian Halloween

Corynn had to get herself married and move away and Andrew is too old to dress up (still NOT too old to eat the candy though.)  That left a perfect Narnian Four.


and a Wicked White Witch



(Matt was supposed to be Mr. Beaver and even had himself some lovely ears and a tail- but he wound up coming home too late from work to don them.)


Edmund



(I can't describe how elated Moses was when a friend loaned him a REAL SWORD for the occasion.)


(Thanks to the dollar store for giving me a break from cardboard helmet making.  Though seriously, whose head do they think will FIT that thing?! Not a Newmans', that's for sure.)

Lucy

(The only suitable vile for Lucy's cordial was a glitter vile.  And her dagger was cardboard and kindling.  Use your imagination, people!)




(See all that red?!  I very nearly burned that red material up when cleaning the Granary this year.  (It had, apparently, been home to quite a family of rodents throughout the years...)  But it was such a large piece of fabric, that I decided to wash it up just in case I ever needed it for costuming.  And it was THE PERFECT SIZE for Lucy's cape and Moses' tunic/lion this year!  I love it when that happens.)


(This golden lion formed from bakeable clay was made in haste and broke almost immediately after these photos were taken.  But it was still my favorite part of Peter's ensemble.)



Judah makes a handsome Peter.  
(I am trying not to let the fact that his shoulder tips were turned in rather than out bother me.)


A borrowed sword.  Papa's flintlocking pouch.  I did have to buy that faux leathery fabric but it was under $5 at Hobby Lobby thanks to a perfectly timed sale/remnant.  


(It was 80 degrees this Halloween.  Not the greatest time to wear a fur blanket.  Just sayin'.)

The White Witch was looking pretty ruddy.


Susan


(We were going to use Adele's bridesmaids dress for her costume but we saw this dress on Shein for a song.  It did require her to meticulously paint every bright white pearl on the sides with nailpolish though.)  And because it wasn't a real bridesmaids dress, I felt like I could add green details to the sleeves and bodice without ruining it forever.  Arrows were made out of chopsticks and feathers, the quiver from a pringles can.)

It all looks so authentic until Moses lets the pizza box writing slip.  ;-)








(I found a pack of LED icicles at the dollar store which I affixed to an old bent up crown...by far the coolest part of my costume.)



Andrew showed up just in time to eat candy and photobomb me as I was trying to capture my glowing crown...

Andrew would have been a fabulous Mr. Tumnus.  But NOOOOOOO.  

If anyone wants to guilt him into costuming up next year, feel free to leave a comment telling him he must.  
(Maybe he'd listen to you...)

Avalanche











 









I have decided to try and shovel my way out of many months of unblogged photos for the next week or so, in an effort to get up to date and begin blogging at more regular intervals.  Announcing an avalanche of photos coming by posting the photos of an avalanche of snow that came mid-November just seemed fitting.

Our first snow of the season dumped over 14 inches on us. Snow clung to the trees and swirled all around us, transforming our world into a snowglobe.  A winter wonderland.  Narnia.
It also happened to knock out the power for nearly a week.  (Which is magical and fun- except when you have to milk a cow by hand that is used to a milker; water cows that drink GALLONS of water a day (without running water) and heat your home without a wood furnace (which requires electricity to burn hot).  Other than that, times without electricity are some of the most fun times of all.  (Unless it is out so long you begin to worry about all that meat in the freezers...)  Other than those worries, no electricity times are some of my favorite times.

Earlier in the day, before the snow began, I had baked sugar cookies with the intent to decorate them before company that night.  (I never got around to it.)  Company came, feasted and stayed very late.  The kitchen was a WRECK and I wanted nothing more than to go straight to bed.  But for some strange reason, I convinced myself that I would have a much more successful day if I just went ahead and cleaned the kitchen at midnight than wake up to a mess.  (I am rarely so level-headed.)   I did it though, went to bed, and woke up to no running water.  BUT A CLEAN KITCHEN!!!!

(And decorating those snowman sugar cookies by lamplight was pretty fun too.  I can't believe how dark a home gets at 4pm without any lights going...that is when those dark pictures in the kitchen were taken.)

Thankfully, with a gas stove, hot food is always a possibility, even if it is just eggs and homemade cheese.  And cinnamon toast.  With leftover frosting glazed on top.

In the next week or so you all may get a bit dizzy from all the blog jumping I'll be doing.  The only thing I promise is that it will be done in a very slapdash way.  Hold on to your caps- an avalanche is coming!

Wednesday, January 01, 2025

Stepping Into 2025 with St. Patrick


I began writing this blogpost is 2024 and finished in 2025.  If it takes a year to make a blogpost- no wonder I don't do it very often!  ;-)

As we've now entered 2025, so begins my annual yearly reflection and resolve.

Last year's resolutions were a mixed bag.  I didn't accomplish about half the things I said I would- but I did 50% more than I would have had I not made those goals... and that is the reason why I do this every year.  I know I will fail in some areas... it is inevitable... but I find that there is always success is in the striving.  

Great things I accomplished last year?!  My insane month of January cleaning/organizing/purging.   Having my in-laws over every week for dinner.  Having all the ladies and children from the church come over every month- I only missed a few months.  Taking vitamins.  Sending 6 cards (though no more than two long letters).  Christmas shopping throughout the year.  Buying a new (to us) vehicle.  Helping Andrew buy a new-to-him vehicle.  Sorting/purging the ENTIRE Granary.  (Not yet blogged the before and after pictures- but just wait!  It's amazing.)  

Things that were great until about October, when my world came crashing down and nothing but survival seemed to be important: Morning Time with Mama.  Exercise.  

Things that never happened at all: repainting the dining room.  reading Paradise Lost. Saving money.  Making a new variety of cheese.  Grapes.  Carrots.  Keeping a home journal.  BLOGGING.  (I'm sorry!)

Soooo.  Many good things, a lot of healthy and important habits to resume and a few roll-over goals for this year!  All in all, I am happy.  I love this quote:

 If we really have too much to do, there are some items on the agenda which God did not put there. Let us submit the list to Him and ask Him to indicate which items we must delete. There is always time to do the will of God. - Elisabeth Elliot

(Sometimes the will of God requires you to do MORE.  Sometimes His will is for you to do less.  May we have wisdom to know which is needed at the proper time.)


Goals for 2025


~ Read Paradise Lost and take this free course on it .  

Conveniently divided into 12 books, my goal is one book per month.  This is the 3rd year reading this book has been a goal- and THIS IS THE YEAR that it will be accomplished. I feel it in my bones!

~ Make a quilt 

(This needs to be done by May and I've never made more than a baby quilt before... so wish me luck!)

~ Repaint the Dining Room

~ Create a monthly budget and use the envelope system to be sure it is implemented. More money has slipped through my fingers due to not having a budget than I care to admit.  (And inflation!  It's not ONLY my fault!)  With prices and times as they are, it is all the more reason to be intentional with our money.

~ Begin a SAPHOUSE FUND (The chicken house may never house a chicken.)

~ Keep a home journal this year.  We've had it for years but never write anything in it.  I plan to write in it every single Sunday, at the least.  I really want to document home projects (because I always forget when things are done) and prices of things as they are ever increasing.

~ Use up enough of my cotton yarn to fill a single basket- or less.  (Dishcloths here I come!) I am not sure if I should make this a 'crochet a dishcloth every week' goal or just a 'make it happen how ever you can' goal.  I guess I will start with the latter and if needs must, go to the former.

~ Try to make a new variety of cheese (It's about time I expand my repertoire.)

~ Invite individual families from church over once a month.  (Inviting all the ladies and children over last year was so worthwhile, so fun and did exactly what I was hoping it would do:  provided opportunity for new and old families to get to know one another more intimately. I think having my menfolk rubbing shoulders with other menfolk each month and us giving undivided attention to a single family might be worthwhile in a different way.

~ Read through the Children's Story Bible with the Littles.  Because we often just read straight scripture throughout the Bible, the 'stories' are not so ingrained in my Littles' minds as they were in my Biggles'.

~ Create a better schooling schedule for the Littles- and then implement it. 

~ Make Morning Time Great Again.  (I kid, I kid. Somewhere along the line, though, Morning Time With Mama became just Bible Reading and The Christian Almanac and I slacked off on the daily electives in order to make things quick and easy.  But we are missing out on sweet times and interesting learning by making things quick and easy.

~ Keep my commonplace book more faithfully.  (It is a treasure when it is done so I should DO IT.)

It turns out, quite a few of my goals this year are what I will NOT be doing. 

~ I AM NOT GOING TO WEIGH MYSELF for all of 2025.  

 I am tired of not feeling successful when I choose to exercise  or make healthy choices but the scale screams FAILURE to me every time I step on it.  The results are that I then get depressed about my weight instead of proud of my accomplishments.  I weighed myself on Dec. 31st and I will weigh myself on January 1st 2026... but until then, I am going to celebrate my non-scale victories instead of them being stolen from me by the stupid scale.  If I want to track progress, I will do so either with pictures or with measurements or by how my clothes fit.

~ I AM NOT GOING TO TRY TO LOSE WEIGHT.  Instead, my only focus will be to EXERCISE (in some capacity) at least 3x/week.  The fact is... I am getting older and "strong" is a much more necessary goal for older people than "skinny".  Strong means less broken bones.  Less illness.  It means less damage in falls.  It means less falling.  It means more playing.  It means better heart health and brain function and cellular function, better digestion, better blood pressure, better insulin response, more independence and vibrance.  The Lord gives us our days- we cannot add a single day to our lives- and He also tells us to steward well the ones that He has given.  Fitting into single digit sized jeans has been my aspiration almost my entire life... only now do I realize how opposite that is to "stewarding" my body.  If I exercise 3 times per week, that is a huge accomplishment and deserves being celebrated... no matter what.

~ I AM NOT GOING TO CUT OUT FOOD GROUPS.  For several years and for various reasons, I tried cutting entire food groups out of my diet.  I didn't notice many worthwhile changes and in fact, one of the results was my hair started falling out and never regrowing.  The latter half of this year, I began eating carbs and my hair decided to start growing again.  (Slowly...very slowly... but it is something.)  So this year I am not going to cut out entire food groups.  The only thing I will be limiting (not eliminating!) is sugar.   I will be tracking my protein because I know I don't eat enough of it.

~ I AM NOT GOING TO DRINK MORE THAN 12 DIET COKES this year (that's 1 per month in case of migraine).  

You see...if I fail with the "ABSOLUTELY NO DIETCOKES!" by drinking one in a moment of weakness, then I will most certainly say "Ah!  I failed.  Might as well drink as many as I want now..."  But if I keep a window of success available, I will most certainly be drinking ALMOST no diet cokes and that will most certainly be better for me.  Because they are poison.  But weirdly tasty poison.  :-)  

Do you have any goals for the coming year?  How did you do at your goals last year?  I'd love to hear!


"Good and evil both increase at compound interest. That is why the little decisions you and I make every day are of such infinite importance. The smallest good act today is the capture of a strategic point from which, a few months later, you may be able to go on to victories you never dreamed of. An apparently trivial indulgence in lust or anger today is the loss of a ridge or railway line or bridgehead from which the enemy may launch an attack otherwise impossible."  ~ C.S.Lewis

Monday, December 30, 2024

A Year Ago Today


Corynn and Kemuel are off celebrating one year of married life today in the Catskill mountains...seeing amazing vistas and visiting lots of coffee shops.  

Meanwhile, I am drinking tea and looking back on photos of that day.  It was all a bit of  a blur on their wedding day, due both to busyness and sickness, so in many ways, it feels a bit like experiencing it all for the first time...

maybe you'd like to also?

(The above link takes you to their wedding album...)

Thanks to my brother for taking these photos and Danielle, for editing them.  I am so happy and grateful to have them!

(Happy Anniversary, Corynn and Kemuel!!  We love you!)



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Friday, December 27, 2024

Merry Christmas, 2024

             


      Dear Ones~                              

The more observant of you may notice that this Christmas newsletter must cover TWO years instead of one, as I was never able to get Christmas cards out last year.  Was I being a slouch?!  Perhaps.  But more so, it was due to my putting on a DIY wedding for Corynn and her now-husband Kemuel less than a week after Christmas, 2023.  Rather than Christmas card mailing, the month of December was filled with addressing wedding invitations.  Rather than Christmas letter-writing, I was making hundreds of pounds of beef barbacoa, chicken and beans for a Chipotle-inspired taco bar to serve our 260+ guests!   

So let this letter be a doubly hearty HULLO and a twice-as-jovial MERRY CHRISTMAS, to make up for lost time!

Corynn and Kemuel had a beautiful wedding, despite most of our family (and indeed, the bride herself!) being down with a severe flu/illness during that week.   Loving one another in sickness and in health began early in their marriage!  ðŸ˜Š  The blessings and beauty of that day have extended throughout their first year of marriage… and what a pleasure it has been to watch them both be knit together.  Whatever Kemuel sets his mind to seems to succeed and whatever Corynn sets her hands to is made more beautiful.  What a dynamic duo.  Would you believe, not even one year later,  the Lord in His kindness provided them with an opportunity to purchase a home for themselves with an attached shop for Kemuel’s roofing business?!  It is a little house tucked in the woods and has regular bear visitors (much to Corynn’s chagrin… the first few nights they were welcomed by three bears right outside the bedroom window!)  It has a pond, more bathrooms than we have (though, in truth, that doesn’t take much), beautiful kitchen cabinets (that don’t slam!), an island that can be sprawled out on without feet dangling (I tested that theory) and an absolute DREAM of a shop out back.  Best part?   It is only 12 minutes away from us!  Praise the Lord! 

Since my last letter, Corynn flew the coop, and Andrew has found his wings…

  Andrew, 18, recently graduated, concluding his homeschooling requirements for the state but I have no doubt that it is just the beginning of a lifetime of continued learning and growth.  He is and always will be a ‘learner’, that’s just his style.   Andrew saved money for years and, this spring, was able to buy a really amazing truck as his first vehicle.  Boy, the months leading up to purchasing it were exhausting as he scoured Facebook marketplace for what he wanted and got stressed when things never worked out just right.  And then POOF!  The Lord provided the perfect truck at the perfect time.  (Just like his Mama had assured him.)  That truck has taken him to work roofing for the Avoda Company (Kemuel’s company),  to EMT training at a local hospital and on road trips to Virginia and Tennessee.  For a week or so this year, he ditched his truck and took a PLANE to Moscow, Idaho to attend the Called Conference, a conference for young adults put on by New St. Andrews College.  I feel those wings a-flapping and when the worry and stress of that starts to creep in, I am left trying to assure myself that the Lord’s timing/plans for Andrew’s life will be just right too.   I cannot see into the future, but I can see clearly this moment… and I see a guy who is dedicated to doing a job well AND wisely, who shows initiative, who is dependable, gets his hands dirty but washes them before supper; who is at the top of his EMT training class and is known as ‘the natural’, who respects his parents, shows restraint and calm in times of conflict, who sings loudly during church and is the first to clean up the pew books afterwards.

Adele’ turned sweet 16 this year and celebrated by road-tripping to Myrtle Beach with the Newman grandparents, Uncle Nathan and Aunt Leia.  Her first airplane ride!  Her first boardwalk!  Her first toe-dip in the ocean!  She came home and her feet barely touched the ground for a week!  She has developed an affinity for Jane Austen, P.G. Wodehouse and Agatha Christie and is now 43+ pages into writing a novel of her own.   When she isn’t writing novels, she is writing her pen pals.  Mail is one of her great joys.  She was over the moon with all the sweet messages and advice she received for her birthday this year (many thanks to all of you wonderful people who sent her cards!) Adele’ is greatly anticipating getting her license this year and the freedom that will afford her.  (I wonder how long I can put that off?!)   She loves children and is great with them and desperately wants babysitting jobs, so here’s your notice if you happen to have young children and need a sitter! 😉  She has discovered that she may not hate math as much as she thought she did, that outings with friends are the BEST FUN (road trips to VA are the best of the best), and that she CAN, in fact, belt out music (as long as it is with the piano).  She is patient and helpful and sweet.  Adele’ does not need to be the center of attention, but even when she tucks herself in the background, she shines.  She is quick to allow me to share in her joys and sorrows and those joys and sorrows are taking on a much more grown-up patina these days. 

In the last Christmas letter, Judah was still singing soprano.  Now at 14, he has sloughed off most of his boyishness and unlike Peter Pan, has officially begun to grow up.  Literally.   He grew over 8 inches since that letter and this one; he now stands taller than his Mama.  Size 13 shoes makes finding shoes to fit his ever-growing feet a struggle.  But he is not just growing up physically.  In the absence of Matt and Andrew at their respective jobs, I lean heavily upon Judah to help me out with all the manly tasks that need to be done around here.  (There are many.)  He is the full-time milker of our jersey milk cow during the week (Matt gives him a day off on the weekend) and that chore comes twice a day, rain or snow or shine.  He was the full-time mower this summer, not only around here, but also for a neighbor with a mowing business.  He is called upon to do firewood, carpentry, construction work, clean up… and not just by us but by many others needing a strong, strappin’, hard-working boy (turns out that kind of boy is a hot commodity). One of the lessons Judah has had to learn this year is how to accommodate his calendar/time/commitments to help all the people who are calling upon him for employment without sacrificing his homeschooling.  It can be challenging!  He worked so hard and so often this summer that he was able to save up and purchase a nice hunting bow set as well as finally fulfilling his dream (of many years) to have a dirt bike of his own.    Last year, in addition to all the rest, a rigorous challenge was put out in his local Trail Life chapter that the three highest badgework completers would win a ride on a private airplane to Maine, for a trip of camping, hiking and fresh lobster tasting.  When Judah sets his mind to something, he is all in… he worked incredibly hard and he won a spot on that plane!  That was an adventure of a lifetime and would have shown up on last Christmas’ newsletter had there been one.  (PS. He discovered he loves lobster. And planes.)  Judah is the one Newman less drawn to books.  Instead, in those rare, relaxed moments at home, he is at the piano, tickling the ivories.   He graces our church services with his playing too.  Oh, what a gift his musical talents are to this house. 

Ineke, (9), this very moment, is on her way to New York City with Grandma and Grandpa Newman, to see the Rockettes perform a Christmas show with her cousin CC.  My, what well-travelled children we have!  (I thought homeschoolers didn’t get out much?!)  She is over the moon excited because she has a real love for dance, theater and gymnastics.  Not a day goes by without her stretching into gymnastics splits or spinning off on one-handed cartwheels.  Papa has built her a bar and a balance beam to keep her busy and she steals my exercise mat on a daily basis.  She is almost able to do a perfect split!  Since the last Christmas letter, Ineke has become wonderful at reading and participates in reading aloud the Bible in the mornings, right alongside her older siblings.  She may have even corrected her older siblings in their reading a time or two.  😊  Thankfully, while she is old enough to read on her own, she is not too old to snuggle into my side and listen to stories.  She has been learning to play songs on the piano, has been added to the dishwashing rotation and is in charge of caring for our new pup Sadie.  OR Sadiekins, as we like to call her.  (Faithful Ruby is no more but a bit of her courses through Sadies’ veins). 

Moses Matthew is still larger than life both in his stature and his character.  He is 5 years old but wears size 10/12 in clothes.  I tell him that it was no accident that God made him to be a mountain of a man and to use that gift well.  Someday, he may just be a mighty man of valor.  He loves drawing and draws so many pictures in a day that sometimes I have to do a bit of artwork excavation just to get into the fridge. (At peak, the fridge had 18 drawings on it…)  Since then, I have encouraged him to pass his plethora of pictures out to people, so he often has a wad of drawings to hand out wherever he goes.  One of my favorite times is when it is his turn to pray aloud… just tonight he prayed “Lord, thank you for being with us and protecting us.  Help us not to lie.  Give us courage and strength to be your strong people.  Thank you for flushing our sins away from us and help us to be good. And give us lots more days to live.  Thank you for this nourishing food.  And be with Papa on his way home, keep him safe.  In Jesus’ name.”  His prayers are 1 Timothy 4:12 lived out across the dinner table.  Moses loves books and insists on hearing at least a pile of them a day.  (He could sit for dozens.)  He is generous with his compliments and recently learned to whistle!  His favorite animal is a marmoset “because the babies are as small as my thumb”.  He recently told me out of the blue “Mama, I think growing up is the most fun thing to do.” 

My other Matthew, the O.G. Matthew, my love, their Papa, the M.A.N… is currently at work.  It is 9:27pm.  He left at 6:30 this morning.  Dairy One has made some changes that have required Matt and others to temporarily step up and step in to fill up some voids.  It has been a hard few months!  But it has been astounding and inspiring to see the tenacity, determination, commitment, sacrifice and hard work that they have willingly and cheerfully shown through it.  Matt is strong, he is faithful, he is tireless and good.  He does what is right, whether it is comfortable or not.  He constantly gives of himself; he leads by example… I admire him so.    As everyone knows by now… when Matt isn’t working, He is still working- just differently.  His “relaxation work” almost always involves wood.  For Corynn’s wedding, he built a timber-framed arbor for the bride and groom to be wed under.  It felt to me like a Fathers’ beautiful blessing over their heads and their marriage.  This summer, he took on a much larger project and began to rebuild our old chicken coop.  Instead of replacing the small remnant of the chicken coop that was here when we moved in, he decided to timber frame a building the size of the original coop- which happens to be three times the size!  (We do not need THAT many chickens!)  The rest of the space will be used as a “garden shed’ but, truly, a more apt name would be a garden mansion.  (That’s his handiwork in our Christmas photo.) 

                As for me… I am learning (not so gracefully, most times) that time is fleeting, nothing is permanent, gifts are all around us (and often not noticed) and that hard providences are blessings too.  The Lord uses trials, difficulties and afflictions to draw us closer to him, to strengthen our faith, to tear down our idols, to shine light into darkness, to refine, purify and GROW us, and to declare to us, over and over, that we are wholly dependent upon his mercy but to rejoice, because He is merciful.  Trials may not be pleasant, but they are always good for us.  As hard providences seem to have come to me for several years in a row now, I suspect I am a slow learner.  😉  But the Lord continues to bring me through the valleys, brings light to the dark, comfort to me in my afflictions, graces me with His goodness and love; And promises to work all things together for good.  This is the God we serve.  And THIS is why Christmas is so palpable to the world.  This is the very thing He did so long ago… when The God of the Universe graced the world with His goodness, wrapped in baby flesh.  He slashed through the darkness with His illuminating Light and the heavens broke out in song.  He tore down idols and tyrant Kings, He gave mercy and goodness to a people, utterly incapable.  He brought strength to the weak, power to the lowly, JOY to the world.  He brought Glory from despair.  It’s easy to forget that darkness and despair have always been part of that story too.  A necessary part.  Without it, we cannot be blinded by His light. 

May you all be positively blinded by His goodness and mercies this Christmas Season and throughout the coming year.  May God’s light fill you all with joy and hope… and then, may we radiate it to the world.  Merry Christmas! 

Love,    Rebecca  (for the whole family)

Thursday, November 28, 2024

Happy Thanksgiving


Sweet moments.  Beauty.  Comforts.  Blessings.  Abundance.  Warmth.  Health.  Love.  Kindness.  Children.  Laughter.  

Gratitude and thanksgiving comes so easily with the likes of these.  But what if yours is a season like Jobs?  What if your life is full of affliction, disappointments and despair?  What if the darkness seems to drown out the light?  Is there thanksgiving even in the dark?  Is gratitude even there, at the bottom of the pit?

I am learning that, yes, there can be gratitude even there.  There MUST be.

This Thanksgiving, alongside all the glorious goodness the Lord has heaped upon my life, I am also giving thanks for...


the afflictions in my life.

They remind me that I am wholly dependent upon God's mercy.  In my own sanctification.  In mothering.  In the lives of my children.  It is far too easy to forget how full of sin and misery we are without His grace.  

They tear down my idols.  Somewhere along the line, I unknowingly began to believe that it was by my own merit, my own good mothering, my own selflessness, my own wisdom, my own protection, my own efforts that I would create a peaceful and holy bubble in which the sins of this world could not enter.  By my will alone!  I have created idols of myself, my husband, my children, my friends; no less ludicrous than dumb statues or golden calves.

They remind me that my brightest accomplishments are like dross.  They remind me that nothing good comes from my own hand, but simply by the Grace of God.

They draw me close to the Lord in prayer.  

They shine a light on my need for repentance.

As Thomas Watson said "God makes adversity our university and affliction our preacher."  The Lord  uses afflictions to instruct.


for the suffering...

It purifies me.

It refines me.

It reminds me that my Father is a Comforter.  I cry out to Him.

It reminds me that this world is not my home and there is a more glorious life to come.

It shouts with a megaphone over the noise of this world that all is under His watchful hand.


for the separations and goodbyes.   

The goodbyes, as painful as they are, indicate that there once was togetherness.  And it was sweet.


for broken hearts.  

And for the healing that comes after. 


Whether the blessings in your life are pleasant ones or hard ones, whether the gratitude comes easily or with some practice, may your Thanksgiving be a day with eyes be wide open with the wonder of a loving God.


(Also, if you are struggling with hard providences of your own, might I suggest reading The Art of Divine Contentment by Thomas Watson?  It has been a true comfort and source of guidance for me.)