June's heat is hot and heavy upon us, making it difficult to even think of doing anything worthwhile. Heaving one foot in front of the other is accomplishment enough, and sweat forms on our brow even while we rest. It will be nearly 100 degrees today and the air is already heavy and clammy~ but in the night, June will let out it's frustration in the anger flashes, shouts and weeping of the sky. I look forward to it and plan even to dance among the drops and flashes, soaking up the refreshment of a midsummer storm.
My mind has been in a similar state these days; at times my thoughts are hot and heavy upon my heart, moments later the clouds of worry break open and I inwardly weep and groan.
There are secrets here. For weeks I have hidden from the world the things that have troubled and excited my heart. Possibilities of change, yet they are possibilities still. Not certainty. There is no closure. No days set apart to look forward to the beginning of our new life.
Still, I wait. Still, I must keep secrets. Still, I have to keep these things within-though I am never very good at keeping my emotions under lock and key.
Wait on the Lord: Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord. ~Psalm 27:14
I can rid my body of sweat by taking a cold shower or dancing within a thunderstorm, but it is much harder to rid yourself of your thoughts, worries, and anticipations. I wish they could be washed so easily away.
Yet while I struggle with my own ignorance, I can find comfort knowing that our lives have already been planned. The future is not unknown to ALL, just us. For now. God has known where our lives are headed since before we were even born. He has already decided where and when to change our situation and will make these things happen in His perfect timing. I do find comfort in that.
But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength: they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run and not grow weary; they shall walk and not faint. ~ Isaiah 40:31
Until I can share the secret things of our house, I leave you with a clue in visual form. Hopefully soon, all will be revealed. VERY SOON!